So I’ve been on JP+ for almost two weeks now, and I have to say, I can already tell a difference! My energy levels are definitely improving and I truly do feel better. I have also seen a slight increase in my milk production (yay!) so that’s an added bonus!! I can’t wait to see what the next weeks bring! Hello good health!
I’m really starting to wonder when exactly you KNOW you’re ready for baby number two. I mean, if anyone would ask me right now I would immediately say NO. Not yet. Gotta get G to sleep through the night first. Or at the very least, sleep more than 3 hours at a time. It’s been 8 months (minus 4 days) and multiple ear infections, and we’re still trying to figure it out.
Here I am complaining, and I really have no right to be! I have the most beautiful, happy, loving, smiley, social baby who is literally the most amazing blessing I could have ever imagined. I am SO blessed to be her momma, and I know that I couldn’t have it any better. I know that as soon as she finally does start sleeping through the night I will miss her. I will miss watching her sleep in my arms at 3 a.m. after waking me up by yelling (not crying… she rarely cries!) for me to come get her. Or on the nights that I’ve already been in and out of the nursery too many times and given in to bringing her to the bed… those nights I sometimes wake up at 3:30 a.m. to someone “playing” with my hair, or petting my face, or licking my stomach. 😛 and I know when those moments are no longer and she is sleeping peacefully in her bed all night long, I will MISS her! So I should be thankful for the sleepless nights, right?
Anyway, back to my original train of thought… that beloved baby number two. When do you REALLY know? I mean, I’m not ready. But when I see that post on facebook about my friend who just did their gender reveal, I can’t help but feel that TINY bit of jealousy! HOW EXCITING! That moment when you find out what that sweet babe you’re baking has got between his or her legs. Or that pin on pinterest about how to “surprise” your husband with the info that he’s going to be a daddy again! (Since a father’s day card a couple weeks early as you load up the car to leave for your honeymoon isn’t the ideal fun-filled surprise!) Or that AMAZING birth photography session your photographer friend posted that makes you SO regret not paying for one the first time (Note to expectant moms… don’t assume your mom AKA Grandma-to-be will be able to get all those great shots herself. You will end up with 250 pics of your puffy fluid filled face, your distressed lady parts, and too many unidentifiable objects that no one wants to see, but as soon as the babe comes out… NOTHING. No pics. Because instead of being the photographer and getting that sweet pic of your baby’s first cry or your husband’s sweet forehead kiss, she’s too busy being grandma!). I just can’t help but feel a little bit of that green monster coming out.
I’m not ready for baby #2. I barely get enough time to spend with my sweet little Gracie girl! I want her to get as much one-on-one time as she can before another Bryson Jr. comes along. Is it OK to be selfish in that way? I mean, when baby number 2 comes along, then it’s a whole different ballgame right? Is it normal to have all these wishy-washy feelings?! I love my baby girl. I want a million of them, but I want them all to be her. Does that make sense? How do you make more room in your heart for a second baby when it seems like she and her daddy are taking up every single bit of space in there?! I do want more babies. Maybe one more… maybe 3 more… I’m not sure yet. I don’t know if I ever will be sure. Or if I will ever be able to talk my sweet hubby into the crazy chaos of a large family. I’ve talked him into a lot of things lately, so maybe just waiting until he’s ready for another baby is the right idea ;).
What I AM sure of is that I’m not ready for that baby #2 yet. But I’m SO ready to have all those mushy, lovey, special, exciting, unforgettable moments again! Maybe we should just “let whatever happens, happen…” HA! That idea worked REAL well for us the first time around. AKA 3 weeks post wedding baby making… Check!
Baby Rahmann #2… I love ya. I can’t wait to meet ya and do all those exciting moments with you too. Someday soonish but not too soon.
I started to title this post “The evolution of my breasts” but then decided maybe that was a little forward. If you are a mom, you MIGHT understand where I’m coming from. I say might because there are plenty of moms out there who have their pre-baby bodies back by 8 weeks. If this is you… Congrats! I am happy for you to be wearing your pre-baby jeans. Impressed by your lack of stretch marks. Ecstatic that you’re back to your sharp-minded, on-time old self. I truly am happy for you!
But being happy for you doesn’t make my insecurities go away. It doesn’t make my 15 lbs of baby weight on top of the extra fluff I was already sporting melt off. Not even with the excessive breastfeeding and pumping. It doesn’t make the stretch marks fade. It doesn’t make my sleep deprived baby brain work better or give me more energy. The struggle is REAL!
I know it’s all worth it. I would do every single bit of it a hundred thousand times over to have my sweet baby G. One look at this face…
How is it possible to feel SO not yourself and so tired and so undesirable and yet SO loved and SO needed and SO blessed?! I truly believe the Lord puts us in the right places with the right people at the right time. How else would we survive?
P.S. Good thing I changed the title from that boob topic. I barely even referenced them! I’ll save the comment I wanted to make for another post. Check back soon 😉
So in an attempt to create blog posts that are somewhat less personal and somewhat more inclined to make me money someday, here’s a totally unbiased post on my most favorite baby products. NO ONE is paying me to say any of this because really I am just another mom. So you really can trust me when I say these products are awesome!
I have been a mom for a little over seven months now to this sweet babe…
Since there are a million baby products out there and I could potentially do a review on about 100 at least, but in an effort to save time, I’m doing my TOP 5 CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT LIST. In no particular order…
These are seriously the best swaddles ever. A&A makes a TON of amazing products that I seriously LOVE, but these swaddles blankets are my all time faves. We never go anywhere without one. She was wrapped in them from the moment she got home from the hospital, and now at 7 months she still takes one to daycare with her every day. They have served as a spit rag (TOO many times to count!) and a nursing cover too. They aren’t cheap ($50ish for set of 3) but they are well worth it if you ask me.
This wonderful bassinet type device served as G’s primary sleeping place for the first 3-4 months or so, until she outgrew it. We struggled with reflux problems for the first few months, and this rock n play chair was seriously our SAVIOR!! It’s perfectly inclined so she was comfortable, it rocks with very little effort (and they even make one now that rocks automatically!!) and the rounded edges keep them safe from falling out or rolling over too much. It also folds up super easily, and the cover can be removed and washed. Who needs that $800 crib when you can have a $40 rock n play?!
As much as I love the smell of good ol’ Johnsons baby soap, it didn’t take us long to realize how sensitive a baby’s skin can be. G had a touch of some eczema/heat rash going on after the first few weeks, so we decided to try Aveeno products. We used the Soothing Relief line (dark blue) and it worked WONDERS on her sweet cheeks. It made us both so happy to have soft, smooth, healthy baby skin again! YAY!
OK I have to admit, we didn’t use this carrier much at first… NOT because I didn’t want to, but because my mommy brain was SO broken I couldn’t figure out how to put the darn thing on by myself. I’m a little embarrassed to say I watched more than one how-to youtube video before I FINALLY figured out the straps slide up so if you have short arms (or short everything like me…) then you can reach it easier. I can’t say much about the insert because by the time I figured the carrier out, G was too big to need the insert. BUT I think it is definitely necessary if you want to use the carrier for tiny babies. We did use a wrap some in the early days (Boba wrap) BUT if you’re looking for a carrier that will last you a while, I would suggest this one! I do have a little bit of buyers remorse for not spending the extra $20 and getting the Ergo 360 that allows the baby to forward face. I know it’s better for them to face in when it comes to the hip issue that is important when using carriers, but there was a time when Grace only wanted to face OUT and see what is going on around her! Now she’s totally happy to be carried at all instead of just being dumped on the floor in the living room surrounded by toys with Mickey Mouse blaring while I cook supper. 🙂
This blanket is my guilty pleasure. If there was one thing I had WAY too much of as baby gifts, it was blankets! We got about a million given to us, and I still bought more swaddles (See #1 above) and Saranonis because I only liked these two! (Sidenote: if you need about 1,382,146 baby blankets, I have a whole tub of unused ones available!) ANYWAY… I stumbled on these through a miracle. I was in the local baby store in Kearney called Suite Child and saw a Saranoni lush blanket that I really liked. It was pretty pricey, and they didn’t have a color that I loved in store so I decided to go home and see what was on the Saranoni website. That’s when I found this sweet perfection of a blanket called the Bamboni! It was cheaper than the lush line, and I thought it looked cute so I ordered Grace a receiving sized one.
So these are my MUST HAVES for sure. Check back soon and maybe I’ll post about my new obsessions for a 6+ month old.
Last night a young woman from my hometown was killed in a car accident. When you’re from a town as small as Cleo Springs, you don’t get to pick who your friends are because everyone is your friend. I’ll always remember Kristie as a woman who fiercely loved her family and friends, and always had a cheerful smile on her face. The world is a little bit dimmer without her light shining bright here with us.
Loss has been seemingly constant over the past few years in my small world, but I guess that’s what happens as you get older. Bad things happen and you just have to keep on living, whether you want to or not. I think a lot of times it’s a struggle trying to see the light at the end of the tunnel when you lose someone. It’s hard not to have thoughts of why and what ifs running through your head. I can’t imagine what it’s like to lose a parent or a sibling, and I pray I never know the pain of losing a child. The unbearable torture that must bring is just not something anyone can fathom unless it becomes reality.
The one thing I DO know is that there is still life after loss. You have to move forward. Minute by minute, day by day just moving forward. Normal doesn’t exist anymore, but there’s a new “normal” that takes over, and eventually you find yourself smiling again. And whether you realize it or not, you still have a PURPOSE here on this hunk of dirt we call Earth. You still have a reason for being.
I can tell you two things for sure…
- My purpose in life is dang sure not to run on the beach like this guy… (or run anywhere for that matter!)
- When you lose someone you love and you aren’t sure where to turn… try opening up your B-I-B-L-E. There are SO many verses that can restore your faith (or ignite it if you have yet to believe). I really feel like there is no place you can find more comfort – no persons arms, no bottom of a bottle, no place on Earth – than in the good book!
I thought I had submitted this post last week, but realized today that I had only saved the draft. Oops! Sorry a little delayed, but here it is…
I have thought about making a post for DAYS now, but when in the world do I ever have time to actually write one out?! NEVER! Seriously! If blog posts could be written and submitted subconsciously without having to sit down and write the post manually, I would have at least 6 or 7 posts since last week.
My 6 month old has been under the weather lately. She’s the happiest baby, and very rarely cries. The only way I can tell if she isn’t feeling well is if she gets so congested and turns in to a mouth breather. That whole mouth breathing noise DRIVES. ME. NUTS! I hate it. So of course I do what all moms do and start with the saline spray and nose sucking.
As you can see here, the runny nose and drooling was a little out of control. Not your best look, G. After a couple days at home, I thought she seemed to be improving and the river of snot had turned into more of a creek, so I didn’t hesitate to load her up and take her to Omaha for a weekend trip with my parents. I was more than excited to cash in on my birthday present (LASIK!), and I wasn’t concerned as much about my snot-nosed kid as I probably should have been.
My parents are seriously the best ever! Not only did they pay for my surgery, but they also drove to NE to take me to Omaha for two days AND help take care of G while I was resting. Like I said.. the BEST!
It’s hard to put into words how precious the gift of sight is. I mean, obviously I could see just fine with contacts or glasses before surgery. But it’s like a new freedom being able to just open my eyes and see! Especially with a sick baby at 2, 3, and 4 a.m. I can’t even begin to tell you how awesome it is!
We rounded out the weekend with Grace’s first steak at Clint’s Tavern. Yummy! Have you ever seen a baby suck on a steak before? 🙂